It's been a while since I've had time to sit and let my thoughts flow from my mind to my fingertips. It's amazing what a release I get by writing. Those that know me, know that I've never been much of a writer. I don't type too well so I've always had someone else type while I talk. But this is me.....just me.
Today I feel lonely. Not super sad lonely, just a little lonely. I miss my family and friends. I miss first of all, my wife. We've been juggling our work schedules so we have different days off. That way we don't have to rely on someone else to watch the kids all the time while we're at work. We only see each other for a few hours in the evenings on my days off. Whatever happened to the days of taking off for the day to the beach, or the mountains. I miss our alone time. Our kids are such a blessing and at the same time, such a chore. I don't, in any way, regret spending time with our kids. But I can't wait for the day that we can have another weekend away. Just the two of us.
I also miss my kids. I only work about 11 days a month, but it seems like I'm at work all the time. They are growing up so fast and I feel like I'm missing out! Canon will be a year old in just a couple of weeks. I can't believe it! He's walking around the house and I want to be there for every step. How can I be a role model if I'm not there? Shani is getting big too! Her interests are changing and she's maturing into a young girl. No more baby Shani. I hope they someday understand why Mommy and Daddy are at work so much.
And then there's the rest of my family. I see my parents at least a couple of times a week. They only live two two mailboxes away so this is an easy task. And what a blessing this is! I know so many people that have moved away from their parents and only see them once a year if their lucky. I can't imagine doing this to my parents, or my children doing this to me! The support and love that they provide is priceless! And they're actually pretty fun people to hang with! I only see my brothers a handful of times a year. As I get older, I have realized that they are pillars in my life that I couldn't live without! Each one of them have totally different personalities, and help me in different ways. This next weekend, I get the pleasure of hanging out with Bub, my youngest brother. It's been at least TEN years since we've had the opportunity to hang out, just the two of us. I'm really looking forward to it!
Then there's my friends. What has happened?? I haven't seen our friends, Daniel and Jean in a few months! As a matter of fact, we haven't had the chance to hang out with any of our friends in a long time! On top of that, my good friend and partner at work, Matt, has been out with an injury for the last few months too! He has been my go-to guy when I need advice, need to vent, or just want to chat. He has proven to be a great friend! It's awesome to have a co-worker, that's also a friend, and a Christian! Hopefully he has a speedy recovery and is able to come back to work soon. Don't tell him, but I miss him.
I also miss my alone time. A day on the golf course, or perhaps the slopes, or even a day at home. It always seems like I have something that needs to be taken care of right away. I REALLY need to finish the project on the house. I'm so close to finishing. I just need the time to do it. I get a chance here and there when Heather's home to work for a few hours, but it's not enough! Maybe in my next blog, I'll include pictures of the finished project.
I love and miss you all....
